HI ALL I'LL BE DOING A SOLO BACKPACKING TRIP IN SWEDEN. HOPE TO HAVE SOME RICH MATERIAL TO SHARE WHEN I'M BACK. MY NEXT THURSDAY THOUGHT WILL BE IN OCTOBER!
PLEASE CHECK BACK IN APRIL
AS I WILL BE LAUNCHING SOME EXCITING NEW VIDEO'S!
How awesome it is that we are all smiles after climbing Lemon Dam! This has been such an amazing and positive group. Cheers!
Any one that knows me has heard me use the Authentic as a way to describe a much sought after sense of real happiness, peace, and contentedness. I use the word Authentic as it really smacks at the core of where the purest healthiest source of pleasure comes from: that is living and breathing right smack dab in the center of our TRUE self.
Most describe it as a raw and visceral sense of peace and ease.
When we choose to set our course of navigation from that purest and most Authentic point we become then equipped to weather any storm. We have an internal amulet for hurt, loss, and even abandonment. We make the absolute and 100% right decision every time, without waiver or second-guessing.
“Good for her, not for me!” As the funny Amy Poeher proclaims. (clearly skilled in Authenticity)
I set out recently to become my own experiment in living or shall I say running in the Authentic. I hold nothing back here, nor am I ashamed to say that I have spent many years operating from the opposite platform. I’ve competed and trained and lived from a very small, frightened, and neurotic place. And regardless of the outcome-no matter how many gold metals adorned-it felt like crap. The smiles fake, and the pleasure fleeting. Anxiety and insecurity would insidiously creep back in.
And so, as a big fan of personal reinvention (something I’ve worked on now for quite some time) I set out to see if I could just possibly run, train, and even compete in a 50 kilometer uphill running race from a fully Authentic self.
My Authentic self would feel excitement, the exhilaration of competition, of the challenge. I would feel compassion and ease as I moved steadily from mile to mile, despite the difficult terrain. I would not go into the dark zone. Success would be measured by simply crossing the finish line with a smile (regardless of a number). I would salute and embrace my competitors efforts.
On the physical plane: I would feel deeply connected and reverent to my body, converse to the militant slave driver.
I would feel fully alive.
And so N=1 turned out an affirmative. I offer that we CAN change our script, our paradigm, our habits. We can re-wire and create positive memorable experiences.
We can live and breathe an Authentic life.
I’ve been quiet lately.
This blog that I’m told will help maintain a proper “online presence” has lately been merely a platform to announce, but hasn’t been a place of my true voice or my spirit.
As some know I struggle against social media, and the likes of being a blogger and a good self-promoter. Certainly useful in application, for me it lacks a certain kind of necessary soul support.
To me a voice without a soul is more uncomfortable and itchy than a good case of Kansas poison Ivy. My fellow Midwesterners will understand the metaphor.
And so my silence has been of comfort and far better than scratching an inch that persists.
I’ve been noticing something though-something so clear and clairvoyant that my voice comes back with gusto.
As I (as we) bump and muck around in daily routine and life I’ve been detecting a profound difference in the way I operate. I make the analogy of a devices’ operating system. The operating system determines the entire functionality of that device. That OS is equivalent to the human container for thought, action, emotion, feeling, experience.
The difference is simple: some day’s I’m living Big, and some day’s I’m living Small.
Not actual size.
Living Big is freedom, creativity, zest, expansion, laughter, forgiveness, intuition, ease, and connection.
Living Small is comparison, doubt, fear, analysis, anxiety, precision and perfection, scarcity, competition.
Can’t you just FEEL the difference?
Athletics(currently long distance running) provides me the most conspicuous of platforms to notice Big and Small. Some days I hit the trail as if I was again a child calling “Jailbreak!” as the doors fly open at recess-minus perhaps cartwheels. I run with ease, with lightness; with a delight in just being alive. No mention of pace or time or measurement. Yes, even while watching the clock to get home on time for dinner.
However, Small enters and Small measures.
It always measures: fast enough, strong enough, long enough, right, wrong, okay, not okay, and even measures my thigh circumference. It’s the keeper of all good things.
Big and Small are not just kept to my running, but seem the most obvious there. Running is my barometer. My guidepost.
I often talk about how running (or any thing really) can be the door way in.
It’s a way to see our selves in a blind world.
I offer no advice, but more I offer observation. Small and Big seem to ebb and flow, but Big feels like where I want to be more and more these days.
And now I head out the door for a run, Big self in stride.
Hi All- due to a power outage last evening...Mindfulness for Athletes will be rescheduled for Tuesday Feb. 21st at the Durango Public Library. 5:30-7 pm.
There was a massive power outage last night in Durango which forced many buildings to close. This is a perfect opportunity to practice some mindfulness, we look forward to seeing you all in a month!